Well there is no better time than in a time of emotional turmoil to release a project that I have been sitting with for some time. Welcome to Musings From A Broken Heart. This newsletter will serve as the home for a majority of my theological musings, essays, poetry, and even some meatier substantive work as I show a bit more of the writing portion of who I am.
I am sure you are asking “why broken heart?” Yes, it does sound quite morbid doesn’t it? Well, let us sit with all that a broken heart implies for a moment. Life has broken my heart. I believe that God has broken my heart by not coming through in ways that I have fervently desired. I have broken my own heart through foolish decisions. Sickness has broken my heart continually. I have come to understand God and the world through a broken heart and so I consider myself to be a broken hearted theologian of sorts. I can’t assert things about God with the force that I used to. There is a hitch in my stride. Life has humbled me.
Doing theology from a heart that has been broken, mended, and broken again is why I consider much of what I do to be musings. When you look up that word it can mean “a period of reflection or thought” and I love that. Too often I was taught theology by (mostly men) in a way that meant that I could tackle God. My faith was comprised of certainties that I could use to bludgeon others with. No. Now, I do theology, at least I try, to stand firm in the lessons that my broken heart has taught me…life is precious and I don’t have all the answers. I have a lot of questions and I also am open to being wrong.
I hope that you are blessed in the musings that I bring to the table here. I will write for the pleasure that writing brings me chiefly. I hope that on the journey that my words are able to make us all feel less alone though. The majority of my content will be free always because that is very important to me. If you find my work blesses you please consider subscribing to bless me.