As a 62 year old white woman, childless by choice, I was 'too sensitive' as an only child and bent further out of shape by my alcoholic father. Moving ten times in my first decade, I had only pets for friends, and became a musician like the lonely, ugly duckling became a swan but fitting in is a constant grind. Professional help only confused me further. depressed? yes. emotionally dis-regulated? often. c-ptsd? adhd? OCD? labels confused, medication dampened, therapy opened old wounds to no avail. It wasn't until I read about high-masking autism that I could appreciate the mosaic of my life and stop my chronic self-flagellation. Self-care recommendations for ASD have alleviated my worst symptoms, and while I won't seek a formal diagnosis having worn out that gear on my inner bike, I coach singers and songwriters, write atheist prayers disguised as poems, enjoy and endure, still surrounded by my beloved pets in new incarnations. When I find a kindred spirit, I subscribe to his (her/their) Substack and thank my lucky stars for grace that got me here. Whosoever judges us a burden, or late in finding our way through life's (a)maze(ment) doesn't have the bandwidth to hear the song it's taken us this long to learn to sing. Oh! The music they miss! Bless your beautiful soul Robert, your melody is utterly sublime!
Beautiful post. Thank you. Sounds like ol’ RFK, Jr. needs to listen to The Telepathy Tapes. How shortsighted he is and discounting of all the gifts that each community brings.
The problem is… that if HE listens to the telepathy tapes… he’s going to realize that the threat autism presents to him is the breaking down of his fool materialist paradigm… and that kind of fear might make him dig his heels in deeper.
I’m promoting TTT to everyone whose mind is prepared for the shift.
I have been toying with the idea for awhile now that us neurodivergent folk are more in tune to source energy/intuition than NT folks tend to be. I’ll save those observations for another day but I feel the evidence is pretty strong.
I won’t watch that video because I can’t. I don’t need that dick bag effing with my vibe (sorry for language).
But I do think that we should be spamming him and literally everyone with Abraham Hicks on Autism.
The focus in this video is on nonverbal children (they’re always speaking to educators and parents) but it applies to all of us. We are advanced. We feel and see and think and communicate in ways that are so different that we are here to educate those who cannot hear and feel and see and communicate in the ways that we do. We are more tuned in tapped on etc.
They just have to get out of our bleeding way and stop trying to make us normal or expecting us to be normal so that we can be our authentic selves and they might learn a thing or two.
Which is our adult humans job. We have to live at our highest vibration. Clear out all the things we were taught, all the ways we mask, all the beliefs they’ve put on us and step into following only our inner guides (whatever one wants to call them). Tend to and nurture that relationship as primary. We have to become our lowest masked selves. Haha. (I laugh because I feel like a world full of us as our lowest masked selves would eff shit up in the best ways. And there really are so many of us.)
Which is really hard. Believe me I know. once I started understanding masking I felt it as dissociation. A nervous system thing. I separated from myself. And I still do to a certain extent in social situations.
Anyway the first time I heard Abraham speak about autism I was nervous. But then I was crying. This isn’t that clip. I don’t think I saved the one I first listened to. It was something about uncondtional love as well as some of the below. We inherently, effortlessly have unconditional love. And we’re really happy if the grown ups who think they know what we should be doing, just get out of our way. And that is literally my prayer for small neurodivergent humans. That their parents and teachers get the eff out of their way. That they learn how to hear them communicating in the ways that they are communicating rather than forcing them to communicate in ways that they think are appropriate. That they support them following their own paths of interest rather than shoving shit like schedules and alarms and whatever else on them.
And I think now that many of us are more clear on who we are and more and more of us adults are standing in our power, we will more and more be heard. We weren’t made to be normal and it’s obscene that folks out there still think they know what’s best for us.
Anyway. Those are my bold thoughts. Feel free not to watch. I know mediums can be controversial but frankly everything they say makes sense to me as does what the mystics say and eastern philosophy. It all makes sense to me and all seems to be the same thing in different language. 🤷♀️ 🖤🖤🖤
Thank you for sharing! My very probable ADHD-self who just happens to have very few neurotypicals in my life has been going insane with the making of neuro-spiciness as something to change, control, and "cure." I was so angry about this---person's beyond ignorant ideas being spewed. If everyone had typical neuro-development we wouldn't have so many of the cool and important things we need in this world.
Thank you for writing this. I believe autistic people are changing the world, and we need them more than we know. It is horrific to me that we are demonizing the very brilliant minds that are saving us. What a world. Thanks for your words. I am neurodivergent. I am with you.
Thank you for sharing this heartfelt story of real life struggles related to mental health. I’m grateful for your tenderly beautiful writing, its powerful emotional clarity and the warmth of your writing style. The phenomenal strength of your loving words resonated for me, and I admire your poetic expression that feels rooted in a sense of authenticity and vulnerability. I relate to so many topics that you illustrated here with a sense of deep emotional resonance and real life truth. I love this. Peace <3
My older son is on the autism spectrum. He is a kind, thoughtful young man who loves rock concerts, runs an after school program through the town rec department, and will be camp director this year at the town day camp. He's smart and highly capable. He's not tragic either. While he has trouble making new friends and reading social situations, he has a bunch of wonderful friends that he shares an apartment with. Autism isn't something to pity, it's something to understand. My son has incredible memory skills that are beyond me. He remembers specific hockey games, concerts he's attended, things I once said, etc. He's an amazing kid. From reading your writing I know that you are also amazing. While autism can hold people back in some areas of their lives, it helps them thrive in others. Blaming it on vaccines, or other nonsense doesn't help anyone.
Thank you for sharing your vulnerable writing. You are not alone.
What RFK Jr. said in that clip is DISGUSTING. It's truly upsetting that we live in a world that thinks so little of those with autism. And don't get me started on the horror stories of those with special needs being abused in schools, daycares, and other places. It's the main reason why so many parents/caregivers are very hesitant in allowing their loved ones go to these places. The places that are supposed to be safe are actually a nightmare. Those with special needs derserve a chance in this world, just like anyone else.
Thank you for speaking on this very important topic. More people need to talk about this because it's only getting worse and worse.
I love how vulnerable you are. Learning that you have autism makes your writing even more profound and impactful. You are a change agent. You are breaking barriers. Keep speaking up. I have gotten to know some people with autism, and I did a podcast episode on my show with someone who has autism. Those two individuals are loving and have big hearts. You are worth getting to know instead of being cast aside and misunderstood.
Thank you for sharing this truth. I am neurodivergent and I have no idea if I would be the creative, heartful person I am without being me. Let's make abnormal normal again!
As a 62 year old white woman, childless by choice, I was 'too sensitive' as an only child and bent further out of shape by my alcoholic father. Moving ten times in my first decade, I had only pets for friends, and became a musician like the lonely, ugly duckling became a swan but fitting in is a constant grind. Professional help only confused me further. depressed? yes. emotionally dis-regulated? often. c-ptsd? adhd? OCD? labels confused, medication dampened, therapy opened old wounds to no avail. It wasn't until I read about high-masking autism that I could appreciate the mosaic of my life and stop my chronic self-flagellation. Self-care recommendations for ASD have alleviated my worst symptoms, and while I won't seek a formal diagnosis having worn out that gear on my inner bike, I coach singers and songwriters, write atheist prayers disguised as poems, enjoy and endure, still surrounded by my beloved pets in new incarnations. When I find a kindred spirit, I subscribe to his (her/their) Substack and thank my lucky stars for grace that got me here. Whosoever judges us a burden, or late in finding our way through life's (a)maze(ment) doesn't have the bandwidth to hear the song it's taken us this long to learn to sing. Oh! The music they miss! Bless your beautiful soul Robert, your melody is utterly sublime!
Thank you for your vulnerability and kindness
Similar in the ways the journey has led me to see the mask. I’m a kindred kind.
Beautiful post. Thank you. Sounds like ol’ RFK, Jr. needs to listen to The Telepathy Tapes. How shortsighted he is and discounting of all the gifts that each community brings.
Yeah it’s just so wild to me
The problem is… that if HE listens to the telepathy tapes… he’s going to realize that the threat autism presents to him is the breaking down of his fool materialist paradigm… and that kind of fear might make him dig his heels in deeper.
I’m promoting TTT to everyone whose mind is prepared for the shift.
I love and celebrate (and miss) you, Rob 💛
Aww 🫂
Thank you for sharing your experience. It is helping me prepare for writing about mine.
🙏🏾
I have been toying with the idea for awhile now that us neurodivergent folk are more in tune to source energy/intuition than NT folks tend to be. I’ll save those observations for another day but I feel the evidence is pretty strong.
I won’t watch that video because I can’t. I don’t need that dick bag effing with my vibe (sorry for language).
But I do think that we should be spamming him and literally everyone with Abraham Hicks on Autism.
The focus in this video is on nonverbal children (they’re always speaking to educators and parents) but it applies to all of us. We are advanced. We feel and see and think and communicate in ways that are so different that we are here to educate those who cannot hear and feel and see and communicate in the ways that we do. We are more tuned in tapped on etc.
They just have to get out of our bleeding way and stop trying to make us normal or expecting us to be normal so that we can be our authentic selves and they might learn a thing or two.
Which is our adult humans job. We have to live at our highest vibration. Clear out all the things we were taught, all the ways we mask, all the beliefs they’ve put on us and step into following only our inner guides (whatever one wants to call them). Tend to and nurture that relationship as primary. We have to become our lowest masked selves. Haha. (I laugh because I feel like a world full of us as our lowest masked selves would eff shit up in the best ways. And there really are so many of us.)
Which is really hard. Believe me I know. once I started understanding masking I felt it as dissociation. A nervous system thing. I separated from myself. And I still do to a certain extent in social situations.
Anyway the first time I heard Abraham speak about autism I was nervous. But then I was crying. This isn’t that clip. I don’t think I saved the one I first listened to. It was something about uncondtional love as well as some of the below. We inherently, effortlessly have unconditional love. And we’re really happy if the grown ups who think they know what we should be doing, just get out of our way. And that is literally my prayer for small neurodivergent humans. That their parents and teachers get the eff out of their way. That they learn how to hear them communicating in the ways that they are communicating rather than forcing them to communicate in ways that they think are appropriate. That they support them following their own paths of interest rather than shoving shit like schedules and alarms and whatever else on them.
And I think now that many of us are more clear on who we are and more and more of us adults are standing in our power, we will more and more be heard. We weren’t made to be normal and it’s obscene that folks out there still think they know what’s best for us.
Anyway. Those are my bold thoughts. Feel free not to watch. I know mediums can be controversial but frankly everything they say makes sense to me as does what the mystics say and eastern philosophy. It all makes sense to me and all seems to be the same thing in different language. 🤷♀️ 🖤🖤🖤
https://youtu.be/v4WAYJBDevw?si=5pQYvEu0e_rmr6Yf
deeply touched by this post and your transparent vulnerability.
As an elementary school counselor I witness everyday the gift of autism as it manifests in daily ways with my students.
We are learning so much more every year about Autism.
I believe someday soon we will finally understand that every human brain is un•re•peat•able just like a human fingerprint.
Someday soon we may even evolve to understand Neurodiversity as ‘typical’ - as no two brains are identical.
Maybe then we will alter our sytems with ‘learner variability’ as our guide.
Thank you for all that you offer us here. I have so much gratitude for you and your unrepeatable voice, heart and mind.
🙏🏾
Thank you. I feel so seen.
Thank you for sharing! My very probable ADHD-self who just happens to have very few neurotypicals in my life has been going insane with the making of neuro-spiciness as something to change, control, and "cure." I was so angry about this---person's beyond ignorant ideas being spewed. If everyone had typical neuro-development we wouldn't have so many of the cool and important things we need in this world.
Thank you for writing this. I believe autistic people are changing the world, and we need them more than we know. It is horrific to me that we are demonizing the very brilliant minds that are saving us. What a world. Thanks for your words. I am neurodivergent. I am with you.
Thank you for sharing this heartfelt story of real life struggles related to mental health. I’m grateful for your tenderly beautiful writing, its powerful emotional clarity and the warmth of your writing style. The phenomenal strength of your loving words resonated for me, and I admire your poetic expression that feels rooted in a sense of authenticity and vulnerability. I relate to so many topics that you illustrated here with a sense of deep emotional resonance and real life truth. I love this. Peace <3
My older son is on the autism spectrum. He is a kind, thoughtful young man who loves rock concerts, runs an after school program through the town rec department, and will be camp director this year at the town day camp. He's smart and highly capable. He's not tragic either. While he has trouble making new friends and reading social situations, he has a bunch of wonderful friends that he shares an apartment with. Autism isn't something to pity, it's something to understand. My son has incredible memory skills that are beyond me. He remembers specific hockey games, concerts he's attended, things I once said, etc. He's an amazing kid. From reading your writing I know that you are also amazing. While autism can hold people back in some areas of their lives, it helps them thrive in others. Blaming it on vaccines, or other nonsense doesn't help anyone.
Thank you for sharing your vulnerable writing. You are not alone.
Beautiful post, thank you! Two of my nieces are autistic and they bring our family joy
What RFK Jr. said in that clip is DISGUSTING. It's truly upsetting that we live in a world that thinks so little of those with autism. And don't get me started on the horror stories of those with special needs being abused in schools, daycares, and other places. It's the main reason why so many parents/caregivers are very hesitant in allowing their loved ones go to these places. The places that are supposed to be safe are actually a nightmare. Those with special needs derserve a chance in this world, just like anyone else.
Thank you for speaking on this very important topic. More people need to talk about this because it's only getting worse and worse.
I love how vulnerable you are. Learning that you have autism makes your writing even more profound and impactful. You are a change agent. You are breaking barriers. Keep speaking up. I have gotten to know some people with autism, and I did a podcast episode on my show with someone who has autism. Those two individuals are loving and have big hearts. You are worth getting to know instead of being cast aside and misunderstood.
You have courage that I admire, Robert! THANK YOU for being willing to be so honest and vulnerable with your readers.
Thank you for sharing this truth. I am neurodivergent and I have no idea if I would be the creative, heartful person I am without being me. Let's make abnormal normal again!