On moving and transcending friendships

a restful musing

The irony of my life is that as I get older, and as I acquire more experiences and knowledge, I find that I know a lot less than I thought I did. All of the therapy, healing work, and maturity in this world has not been able to overcome the fact that I a am not self sufficient. I can take care of a thousand others while not knowing how to take care of myself. That is…chuckle-worthy gentlebeings.

“Goodbye oppression.”-words I uttered while leaving

I just got done moving across the country.

Again.

The process of shoving all you own into a moving truck

can be exhausting.

It can be humbling.

It can offer space to reflect on where you

have come from

AND

where you are going.

This move is special for me because I am getting ready to start a brand new and exciting chapter in my life. With that said, the process has been overwhelming and emotional for me. When I knew I was moving one of my friends, who I have written about before, immediately began making plans to help me move. I cannot express the feelings that I have for a friend to commit to sharing in my anxieties and stress. This brother has routinely showed me that I am worth loving. That I am bigger than my fears and trauma. And so… he flew in and drove the entire way. (A two day affair) He laughed with me. He allowed me to cry. We talked about our families and our dreams of the future. Bit by bit, hour by hour, some of the stress and anxiety I have been carrying slowly started to slip away.

So today I am thinking about friendships and how my life has been so enriched by friends that have refused to let me be a lesser version of myself. These relationships can be difficult to come by. Has anyone noticed that it is harder to keep them as you get older? (Especially when you’re over 30 years old) I am also thinking of this move that I made and also about making another deeply satisfying transition. Transitioning and evolving are so much easier when we are upheld and attended by those whom we love.

I am in a season of change,

And if you are too.

May loved ones

attend to you,

resource you,

love you.

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